Anyone know where I stole the idea of my blog title?
I’ve started this post 800 times and have deleted it 799 times. I can’t think of how to word anything. So I just decided to dive right in with categories. Less eloquent, but straight to the point. Let’s roll…
This past month I lost a couple people I knew. First my friend Mark, who I was very close with when I lived in Seattle. We met when we both worked at NWCN. He was like a big brother to me. We started to grow apart, however, when I moved to LA in 2003.
But I did get to see him when he visited LA/San Diego, and when I went visited Seattle. The last time I saw him I was there for my step brother’s wedding several years ago. He was an awesome and funny guy (as you can see by the picture).
I also lost another friend who I knew from college. We were tight back in those days, but again lost touch after college. He was only 46.
And finally my Aunt Bunny, my “second mom,” passed away this last week from cancer. I got to see her a month ago when I visited Detroit. She actually looked pretty good at the time! She was not doing chemo though since apparently the doctors said that it would only prolong her life for a couple extra months.
Aunt Bunny was always there for me, especially when I needed it most. When I was around 12 my home life was completely falling apart. I rode my bike to her house and would stay there all day and sometimes stay the night. Her home always seemed so happy and Lorna (a year older) and Monique (a year younger) were like sisters to me (even though at the time I probably drove them crazy).
Had I not had Aunt Bunny to talk to (and she talked to me for HOURS), I don’t know if I could have overcome what I was going through and make it out of my teen years alive!
I could go on for hours about all the other million times she was there for me, and my mom (they were best friends). She was an incredible lady!
Change is part of life, and while most things change subtly most of the time, sometimes you feel seismic shifts happening around you, or to you. I feel that lately and mentioned that in my last post. Sometimes it’s hard to pinpoint what it is, or what to even do about it.
Change can be very difficult, especially when the changing is not something that is your choice, and you liked the way things are. For example fighting the 3 pound weight gain battle. Where a 3 pound weight gain used to be just one night of too many fish tacos, now it takes barely anything to watch the scale creep upwards. Like seriously, barely anything.
This means either I change and adapt to a new way of living (bye-bye occasional french fries), or I learn to enjoy a more squishy physique. Well, I prefer the former if I have to be honest.
And this is just one example of many changes lately.
But you either learn to pivot and adapt and embrace change, or you stagnate and find yourself depressed that things are no longer what they once were. It’s a choice. Pure and simple. But it’s not easy. Nope. Lots of lonely nights drinking
two-buck chuck water (remember I talked about the 3 pound thing?). 🙂
I did book some travel this past month! I’m going to Nashville in September with my friend Erin, and I booked my flight to Austin for Camp Grounded in October. The camp is just outside of Austin but I’ll be spending a couple days in the city as well. I used points I had on Southwest for both trips!
I also booked a flight home for my Aunt’s service. I had Southwest points for a lot of it, but I had to buy more points to make up the difference, so I spent $275. Still, not bad for a last-minute flight.
The garden is finally yielding some actual food…that I can eat! Woot! There is something incredibly satisfying about eating food you grew, and somehow it just tastes so much better as well.
My net worth went up $5,555 from last month, however, I should also let you know that it was mostly because I added the value of my car. If I hadn’t, my net worth would have dropped a little over last month, which I’ll explain…
Pepe was sick this month (when it rains, it pours) so I had to take him to the vet. He was having lower GI issues (that’s putting it nicely). 🙂 So I had to pay for his exam, medication, and we put him on partial wet food for his kidney disease, which costs a little bit more. But man, it’s funny to hear him suck up when I open the can of food. He goes nuts!
If you didn’t gloss over the part where I said my body is changing, in the first couple paragraphs, then you’l have some idea why I signed up for 8 personal training sessions with my friend Dara. It is money WELL spent as I was starting to feel really strong and toned, but as luck would have it, I got a cold last Monday and have not been able to exercise at all, which if you know me is like sending me to isolation in prison. I’m going bat-shit crazy! I took the PT sessions out of my Digit (seriously, I LOVE Digit) account, which I also did to buy…
Yup, bought some new threads. And I don’t feel a bit guilty about it, because I saved for it!
I’m kicking off the month by laying super low this holiday weekend. I’m just trying to get healthy so I can pick up my exercise routine at full strength, hopefully this week, and so I feel well enough for my Aunt’s memorial in Detroit next week.
I’m also just not feeling very social. But I’m in this weird phase of feeling kind of bored and lonely, but not feeling motivated to be around people. It must have been fate because I stumbled upon this article that someone posted on FB that made sense of my feelings. Sometimes you do have to allow yourself to sit and be bored and still, to hear the whispers of what you want out of life. Yes, that was very Oprah of me. lol!
But I do think most of us have a hard time with wanting to fill every void the second they happen. I like what she says in the article that most of us would rather chew off our own arm than face negative or bored feelings. True, huh?
Anyway, another article for another day. 🙂
I think I need to do another FB sabbatical…
BTW have you seen Deadpool? I watched it the other night and holy hell it was funny! And crude! And Ryan Reynolds!
How was your June? Any big plans for July?