Well this has been an interesting month, eh? I must say in my entire 46 years on this planet, I’ve yet to witness firsthand the power of the people who are standing up for their beliefs, and doing it (so far) peacefully.
As much as I’m still beside myself that Trump is President, I sometimes wonder if this isn’t some kind of test to the American people, that perhaps we’ve been complacent too long? That we’ve just hummed along hoping someone else will take care of business? Maybe we “seem” like a country divided, but I’ve witnessed more coming together in the last couple weeks, than division. The pendulum is swinging heavily in favor of voices that are for love, compassion and basic human decency. Maybe this is some kind of test to challenge ourselves to come together to do what is right by America and the world. Me likes to think so. Ya know? Whether there is a Democrat, Republican, or some other party in office, I just want a sane, rational and tough but compassionate leader.
As the title suggests, January was a spendy month, both for good and not-so-good things. My net worth increased $6,649 since November (I didn’t track budget or net worth in Dec). This would be a much higher number but…
Croatia & Slovenia
As I said in my last post, I bought a trip through Intrepid Travel to Croatia and Slovenia. It’s eight days, but I will try to either go somewhere before or after the official tour. For safety reasons I’m not mentioning when I’m going, but I have plenty of time to plan. I’m considering going to Austria and Germany as part of the extension. So that was about $2,000 out the door this month.
Oh man, this is tough. Pepe is not improving with his accidents. It has become emotionally and financially draining. I got another full health workup this month for him for $550.
I’ve read article after article and have scanned cat forum after cat forum, and while there is a million more things I could try (someone actually suggested I put tarp down on my floors), I think every pet owner needs to draw their own line. I’ve spent thousands on him in the last three years, and things have only gotten worse.
I think the toughest part is that he does not appear to be sick or in pain, although I don’t think he is quite himself anymore.
As any pet owner who has gone through this knows, guilt is one of the biggest emotions when you’re facing letting your pet go. Somehow I have to work through that. As most of you know I love my Pepe to death, and the thought of his life being in my hands just kills me to the core. Will I have regretted not trying that one last thing? I don’t know.
I do know that this could go on and on, and he is almost 16 so the odds that there will be a dramatic improvement are very slim, so I either face this now and have it be incredibly painful, or I continue to try things, but at the same time I experience daily stress, messes to clean up morning and night, expensive treatments, medicines, techniques, etc….and in the end I STILL have to make the same incredibly painful decision.
I have inquired to my vet about the (holds back sob), procedure, but I don’t have to make the actual appointment until that day (thank god). I don’t want to tell anyone when I decide to do it, because I don’t want to second guess myself. I want to forgive myself and know that I was a good mom to him and that he led a happy life (damn this is hard to write).
And there might be a chance that this isn’t the month I can do it. I don’t think I’ll quite know for absolute sure until there is that moment I wake up and say, “It’s time.” I’m also still on the fence about trying kitty Prozac. He didn’t tolerate the liquid form but I could still try a pill. There are a lot of cats (according to the internet) that have successfully stopped peeing/spraying with this.
If anyone has any words of wisdom, I welcome them…especially people who have been in this same situation.
I took a Tuscan cooking class this past Friday. Y’all, it was weird. It was low energy and one of the assistant cooks was really grumpy. I can’t say I really learned anything either. And dammit the man of my dreams was not there either as I had hoped! lol!
But, we did make a delicious Ribollita (this one was Tuscan Bean and Kale Soup), which I actually bought ingredients for to cook today (sans bread), so I guess all was not lost.
My frugal suggestion: Host your own “cooking class” where you tackle a recipe(s) with friends. Maybe everyone you invite has to bring one person you may not know so you can meet new people.
My Other Blog
I’m sure some of you may be wondering why I decided to stick with this blog. OK, maybe you don’t, but I’ll tell you anyway. It was all a bit much, and since the theme focused on simplicity, I was doing the complete opposite in life. Not that I don’t accept challenges, but between multiple twitter accounts, and people knowing me as BATB and other minor details, it was just easier to stay here. And I’ve since found some new enthusiasm with this blog.
I also participated in the Women’s March on January 21st, which was an amazing day (see the video I created below):
And hosted a Mimosas and Goals brunch with some amazing friends.
Oh, I also successfully (even though there are a few days in Jan left) completed sun salutations every morning except one day. It’s been a nice way to wake up and get the body moving a little, and setting an intention for the day. I plan to keep going!
Well, truthfully this could be a month of unknowns. I think the one thing I want to focus on is self-care. I did a lot of social things this month, which is great, but as a hard-core introvert it started to get a little draining, especially since I’m a bit…raw right now.
To try and keep up my physical health, I’m going to do another One Thing 66-day challenge of no added sugar (except Stevia in coffee and oatmeal). This covers sweets and most of the work snacks, which I still have a hard time with. I actually successfully did it before and felt better. Sugar…man it’s the devil, ain’t it? You KNOW it will make you feel like crap in the long run, but that short-term high is SOOOOO addictive.
How was your month? Any big plans in February?