I’m excited…but also terrified.
I’m still in the mindset where I’m incredibly uncomfortable spending that amount of money on a vacation. I thought to myself that maybe my boss would suddenly change his mind about the time spent away from work and make me cancel.*
Would I be sad and angry? Or relieved? Because then it wouldn’t be my decision or my fault, you see.
It would be so much easier and less expensive if I just stayed in the US. I wouldn’t have to think as much about the logistics, or language barriers, or possibly getting on the wrong train at the right time or the right train at the wrong time. I wouldn’t have to worry about being restless on a long flight, or eating food that could possibly make me feel sick, or getting lost in a maze of crayola-colored homes on a sea cliff in Croatia (ok that part sounds awesome).
I wouldn’t have to worry about someone stealing my camera, or for the extreme worriers: terrorist attacks (that’s not really my concern though).
There is so, so much that would be easier if I cancelled my trip, which is exactly why I have to go.
I think we forget that dealing with new and challenging situations is the best and most exciting way to experience life. Yes, it can be scary, but the experience overall is usually much more awesome than the little obstacles that make us uneasy.
Maybe you’re laughing at my nerves about traveling overseas, but for you it’s public speaking. Or for someone else it’s taking the leap from full time to freelance. Pick your poison.
We either get stuck in a fixed mindset that the way we are is the way we are, take it or leave it. There may be some merit to that, but that landscape, quite frankly, is boring.
Playing it safe just so we can be in the soft mushy place called our comfort zone is like becoming a kitchen knife that never gets sharpened, i.e., it makes us dull.
Now this is not to say that I find base jumping terrifying, therefore I should give it a whirl, but it is a reminder to always approach life and experiences with a growth mindset.
To get out there, and be bold.
What do you need to do to be more bold? What thing or things make you nervous that you’ve been wanting to try?
PS, I also signed up for the Lola Retreat in Portland August 18-20, which is a “bold money event for bold women” led in part by my good friend Melanie from Dear Debt. Get your tickets before they sell out!
* don’t do that Jeff! 🙂